The big list of what’s holding you back…

It isn’t a big list. It’s one word. One bloody horrible short little word that can paralyse you.

Doubt. 

It is the enemy of every artist, crafter, maker whoever thought that they might be able to sell their work. It doesn’t matter where it comes from, it’s there. It feeds on your insecurities and niggles away at you like some irritating little gnat buzzing around your head. It’s always there and no amount of swatting at it will make it go away. Even if you do manage to kill the damn thing, there’s another one making a beeline straight for you.

I don’t have an answer. I can give you all the things I’ve tried or been told to try. Some will work but most won’t. I will tell you one thing though, how can anyone else love your work if you don’t? I think you already do love your work, otherwise you wouldn’t keep at it. You wouldn’t keep sketching or sewing or carving or painting if you didn’t love it. The trick is loving it. Loving it so much that you want others to love it too.

I make mice. Small cutesy little teeny tiny mice and the odd pig out of fabric. I used to make birds, some of which are really stunning, even if I do say so myself. The swans, the hummingbirds and the peacocks are some of my greatest pieces but my back problems put paid to that, the sitting/sewing position were just too much especially the hundreds of hours that I used to put into it.

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I am in love with my mice. My steampunk mice, my Cosplay mice, I love every damn one of them. They take hours to make and each one is better than the last. I make those tiny steampunk hats that measure about 1.5cm tall and every single time I make one, I get totally lost in it. When you buy one of my mice, you are buying my total attention focused on one thing, my love (that sounds bloody naff but it’s true) and my weird little brain and all it’s strange little thoughts.

Whenever I criticise myself or my work, my husband says ‘that’s my wife you’re talking about, quit it!’

He’s also the person who has convinced me into applying for Kirsty’s Handmade Christmas this year. Every year I watch it and think about applying but that absolute arse ‘Doubt’ sits there on my shoulder. It whispers and cajoles until finally my shoulders drop and I think ‘maybe next year’. Well, this is ‘next year’. If I don’t do it now, I’ll never bloody do it!

I shared the video appeal by Raise the Roof Productions and Kirsty, on my facebook page a couple of times as well as seeing it in a couple of the craft groups I’m a member of. On every occasion, there were incredibly talented people saying that they didn’t have the courage to do it. That’s why I wrote this post. I’m telling you that you do. You already have the courage it takes to share your beautiful and time consuming work with us on FB and in those groups, so why not just take a deep breath and apply? You might not go further than sending that email but you know what? You sent that email and that’s probably the biggest step of all for some of you, I know it was for me. The link to apply is here.

Put your big girl knickers on and do it. Or your big boy knickers for that matter!

I believe in you. Time for you to smash that buzzing gnat of doubt with your electrified tennis bat (we have one of those, it’s bloody awesome) and have some belief in yourself.

#biggirlknickers #bigboyknickers get them on!

You’re mad woman!!

This week has been a bit bonkers. I decided on Monday afternoon to tidy my craft room. Just a light tidy you understand, so I could get back to my sewing. Unfortunately, I then decided to move everything around. So what should have been a 30 minute job, stretched into 4 and a half hours. By the time everyone got home from work, I was knackered and halfway through another green and blue mouse.

Tuesday was more my kind of day, I was organised, wrote a blog post, a list, cleaned up and at my desk for 8am and sewing like a demon. I finished that lovely blue and green mouse and this time it was holding a small hummingbird in the same fabric. A 2cm version of my birds! I can’t imagine doing these small parts without my trusty magnifying lamp. I use a Purelite 3 in 1, which can be used as a floor or desk lamp and even unclips so that you can attach it to your desk. It also has a battery pack so that you can be totally mobile with it but I lost the pack somewhere in the depths of my craft room.

After this, it was onto a project I’d been looking forward to since it was first suggested by one of my facebook followers, Lucy. The steampunk mouse….

 

I make no apologies for all of the photos because I think he’s probably my best yet. I’m so proud of him and I know he’ll be treasured in his new home!

Yesterday (Wednesday) saw me making a lovely yellow tweed pig called Daisy with lots of daisies embellished on her!

 

Sadly, I then decided in the afternoon that I needed to clean my oven. This moved swiftly on to me steaming my kitchen cupboards which degenerated into the mad idea of varnishing my worktops at 4.30pm with the special worktop stuff that I bought nearly two years ago and still hadn’t used. This meant that dinner was concocted from a Tesco ready cooked chicken and some pots of salad bought on his way home from work by the lovely husband. God alone knows what we are eating tonight, as I put the second coat on the worktops before 8am this morning. I also think I have varnish fumes poisoning…

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I fully intend to start on my little burlesque mouse today, hopefully the feathery yarn will turn up today so I can make her boa. If I so much as suggest getting the decorating equipment out to do the hallway, someone call the people who supply strait jackets, I’ll have one in a fetching shade of hot pink please….